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Give, Receive, Love
With open heart and willing hands I give to you my gifts
I lay them on the blooming altar to do with as you wish
For when I walk in faith and trust I take such grand adventures
But they never seem to work quite right unless I allow surrender
With open mind and willing heart I will receive your blessings
I wrap them up with loving arms the joys of not repressing
For when I walk in grace and trust, I gain such grand adventures
They always flow as smooth as water, these my greatest treasures
With sacred heart and open mind I’m willing to offer love
As I give so shall I receive from all Watchtowers, below and above.
For when I shine in spirit love, I find a peaceful center
With conscious thought and mindfulness the Otherwhere I enter.
Fried Green Tomatoes At the Whistle Stop Cafe, Fannie Flagg
I knew the love that woman had was something deep woods
It was something that was taken for granted, but everyone understood.
You do not cross that line between what is wrong and what is good
Not without the skillet in hand bouncing off that head of blood.
I knew the love that woman had was something a thief would rue
It was something everyone claimed to not know, but we already knew.
When she looked into my eyes before that blow bid Frank his adieu
I grinned and nodded approval at her, because a mother’s love is true.
IT HURTS!
I heard my Gram scream in the desolate silence
It was early January, out in the country, snow to navel
five blanket kind of freezing and she was screaming.
I jolted awake, scrambling beneath the cocoon of blankets
She screamed as if the hounds of hell were chasing her
When I reached her side, she was five years old.
I rocked her back to sleep.
IT HURTS!
I walked into my home with hope shining brightly
on legal sized paper declaring my parental rights
The phone rang, it was handed to me.
I listened as the perfection I imagined
threw me to the floor unable to support my vision
ripping a universe apart with six words
unable to support the weight of my sorrow as I screamed
IT HURTS!
I rode the elevator upwards without hope, holding knowledge.
I waited patiently for the doctors to return to the room
waited but already knew what they’d discovered.
He was dead. I was alone. There was a void of pain.
An echo of maybe and an absolute removal from now.
When I leaned down to kiss the cold skin of his once warm forehead
I was pulled away for my contamination of the saint with my sinner’s taint.
IT HURTS!
He packed the last of his things into the suitcase.
My eyes barely opened from the days of begging on my knees
My lip bloodied from our last confrontation
when he tried to burn the music out of my soul
when he tried to show me who ruled the roost.
I sat on the cold slab floor with brown tile hiding my shame
I deserted his God. I left him with the pile of discarded cardboard.
Drip your bloodline to mingle with mine
Heat my body, our hands in each other’s hair entwined
Let us drink the wine that spills from our cups
Onto the tables of flesh, let us sup
Tickle my fancy with the brush of your lips
Fancy my giggle along that curve in your hip
Turn your face sideways look over your shoulder
Give me that look that’s for only me; the one that smolders
Remind me again and again how religious we are
As we cry out to the God’s, sing out to the stars.
To honor Good Friday, I was asked to write a poem. I do not proclaim a faith, just a belief in love and the goodness of the human beings that walk this plane. The three part poem below is written from three perspectives witnessing the crucifixion. When it is read, it is from three different voices they come. I hope it speaks to your spirit if you’re so inclined.
The Witnesses
Verse One: The Observer
I’m not a Christian, but Lord, if I was,
I’d not stand by and watch them offer up applause
For that man they called a criminal for preaching about love
For the one some call Messiah, while others cry Peaceful dove.
I stand here in the crowd as they cheer this brother’s pain
My heart is filled with sorrow, as his beaten body strains
The laughter that I hear from the festive vicious hearts
Breaks something inside of me, tears my faith apart
I want to scream above the crowd, “HEAR!”
In a voice shrill and loud, “ME!”
With my head no longer bowed, “LORD!”
Releasing my own funeral shroud, “I AM NEAR!”
But I am weak, just human. I am nothing compared to them.
But maybe, my kindred spirits, that’s what moves me to condemn
For I love my God with all my heart, and in God’s house I walk
I serve in supplication, I don’t just talk the talk.
I am not a Christian, but Lord, if I ever loved,
I’d heed the wisdom of the dying man, and thank my God above.
Verse Two: The Participant
How dare that man pass his judgement down on me!
Who does he think he is, telling ME how to believe?!
I’ve learned and taught the toe-RAH
I’ve worshipped at the sacred altar
I’ve cantered every prayer
I can recite them without flaw or falter.
Then this mortal man comes along and claims to be
Far more holy than even me?
The Son of God? Oh, reeeeaaaaaaallly!?
I’ve fixed that preachy “Love Thy Neighbor” fellow
I paid my thirty silver to hear him scream in falsetto.
Sometimes the laws I enforce prevent me from doing what’s right
I pass the coins to Roman hands, let them bloody their own hands tonight
This should make my people think twice before leaving our faith
To follow a crazy instigator, that rejects my loving God’s face.
Verse Three: The Intimate
I am hidden in the darkness, afraid to show my face
“Oh Lord, why’d they tell us that Yeshua fell from grace?
You showed me my friend Judas with thirty silver in his fist
Forsake my dear beloved with cold betrayal’s kiss
You let my holy brother be taken
from the garden where we prayed.
You allowed him to be arrested
when you could have let him stay.”
I am hidden in the darkness, afraid they’ll point at me and say
That I was clearly one of his. That they’ll kill me the same way.
“Oh Lord, why have they called for my redeemer to be killed?
When ne’er a drop of anguish from his gentle lips have spilled?
I do not feel you near, Oh God, I’ve lost your loving light
When they took my sweet friend, Yeshua, away in darkest night.
If I weren’t hidden in the darkness, barely safe from Roman harm
I’d scream out my torment, beating my chest to sound alarm.
“Hosanna! Hosanna! I sing to your precious name
Hosanna! Hosanna! My finger points my brother’s shame.
My faith is ever yours, even when I don’t understand.
I mean, you took us through the desert, 40 years we wandered sand
And yet, my Father, I hide here, within this darkened room
I wonder, holy patriarch if his death will also be my doom.”
I am hidden in the darkness, despair my wretched dominion
Oh God! My Loving God! Remove my deserter’s vision.”
I spent the night in the hospital last night while they ran all kinds of tests and suspected I was having a heart attack. I kept mulling the topic of the day, wondering what I should or could write about. My pain level when I arrived was at a high end 8, low 9. In other words, I couldn’t breathe to keep it in control, so my blood pressure went over the top. It occurred to me as I sat in the waiting room sure doom would arrive, I could just write about what I was dealing with at that moment. Pen in hand, I wrote the following poem.
Blood Brothers
The pain can only ease
if I am writing poetry
ink to paper thin
dripping words from within
using black and blue bruises
of Bic Crystal pens (my favorites)
The words tick-tock my memories
so I can live again
bloom within
shed my skin
lose to win–
–dows to the sleepless soul
with shades drawn against
the surprise war of the worlds
(Maybe we should toss confetti).
I fill the pages slowly with dragging foot
while my guts glow
radioactive
so attractive
I catch the eyes of ritzy doctors
worshiped nurses
wheelchair parking
and abandoned purses.
I use these words
to forgiv(e)ncourage me
for everything I couldn’t/wouldn’t be
Every day I was too blind to see
That pain can only ease
only ease
if I am writing poetry
Lady Cathy Gritter took me into her church
near her garden door that led only outward.
It had nine panes of stained glass
that guarded the treasures within the hall.
On the pristine white shelves
is where she stored centuries of art,
a sacramental archive of holiness.
I’d enter her church through the side door
withering looks from her husband William
glared resentment at my childish intrusion
I scooted sinfully through to gaze with adoration
at the hallowed scriptures
blessed gospels of
van Gogh, Picasso, de Vinci, Kahlo
offering sermons of:
Sunflowers, Girl Before a Mirror, Mona Lisa, and Weeping Coconuts.
I was allowed to peer into the eyes of holy angels
upon my confessional return of each holy grail.
Put away the American Flag.
Set it down as it waves goodbye.
Do not worry about Democracy, Justice, or Equality,
we let those die a long time ago.
We buried them next to common sense and reason
under the false gods of profit/prophet;
the golden calf of a jesus
(not to be confused with the son of God)
that they gave up believing in because we asked with $$$.
We put God on money so we’d worship worthless paper
the most beautiful angel aka the devil
without realizing
we have already surrendered
to the greatest liar that ever lived.
We keep giving him CPR while claiming compassion.
We keep denying love,
embracing our things
our material things
that don’t keep us warm at night
that don’t ease our loneliness
things that destroy our hope in humanity
one sound byte at a time.
We’ve stripped the women down to bare bones
Shaming their bloody thighs,
Forcing guilt and hate on their skinny/fat/average/stunning
Holy vessels that bear immortality
While denying the necessity
Claiming their bodies as our own
without their consent or with.
It didn’t and doesn’t matter.
If you have little melanin and a dangling bit of flesh
between your legs,
“Welcome, my brother!
Here’s the buffet of aborted dreams,
chastised subservient minimum wage workers,
incarcerated doctors, lawyers, and physicists caught up
on a planted charge of illegal drugs
that wouldn’t be illegal if we could find a way to tax them.
While we watch from 250k houses at their 25 million dollar complexes
The destruction of the burning world
The loss of brown skinned people stacked like firewood
Into tiny cells of persecution
With our personal shame and guilt their oppression.
We’ll pat each others backs while drinking fine whiskeys
Made by child labor in some off-shore company of who gives a shit
Smoke cigars lit with extinct herbs from some country called never-mind.
We’ll prop up our feet on elephant skin sofas
Kick our pristine boots free of hard labor
Grin and congratulate ourselves on a job well done.
Put away the American Flag.
Set it down as it waves goodbye.
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I stepped out my front door into the spring weather with the bite of winter nipping my skin, still hanging on to hope that it will last. George sat shoulder slumped on the concrete wall. He lifted his feet as Pumpkin the ever terrorizing Chihuahua let him know in no uncertain terms what she thought about his morose. As I tugged the yapping pup along beside the tubby pup, George hollered at me, “Mayor? I think I need one of those hugs when you put the dogs back inside.”
I nodded and smiled apologetically as Pumpkin continued her tirade against the world, Piggy chugging along beside her. Duties all done and accounted for, I placed the still overly verbose Pumpkin inside calling for the older canine to come. After a deep breath for some muffling on the shrill bark, I opened my arms and George ran around to accept the hug.
“What pain is on your brain?” I inquired as he broke the hug and dribbled to the ground in his pajama pants.
“We’re going to have to move again.” He explained. “It’ll be cool and all because we’ll have a pond, but I really wish we could stay this time.”
“Why do you have to go?” I asked. “I’m going to really miss you.”
“We can’t pay the rent any more.” He said like it was a litany he’d become accustomed to. It hurt to watch him curl up, knees to chest, tugging his hood over his face.
“What are you doing?” I asked glancing the parking lot to notice a Rent-An-Expensive Couch van pull into the broken parking lot.
“I’m hiding from them.” He said in a hushed tone.
“Why?” I prodded him further. Yes, as an adult, I’m hyper aware of debts, payments, bill collectors, and even rent-expensive-cheap stuff places. I shouldn’t ask because it’s none of my business, but I really like George and Gracie.
“They’re here to take away our couches. My mama said just to let them take the furniture already, but the babysitter won’t do it. We get woke up because they come too early in the morning and we hide so they don’t know we’re there.” He sighed heavily, as if the weight of the world was on his shoulders. “I won’t have a place to sleep if they get in.”
“I’m sorry you’re experiencing that, George. If I could help you, I would. I don’t have any dollars either.” I leaned on my cane and watched the eight-year-old American boy hide his shame.
“Mayor? Can I ask you a question?” He pushed back his hood when the truck started to back out of the parking lot having not retrieved the sofas. I nodded ascent. “What did you mean when you said black lives matter? I’ve never heard a white woman say that before.”
I winced. George has a way of speaking his thoughts and ideas that, quite honestly, I haven’t seen in a child in a very long time. “It means to me that we are all human and should be equal, but we’re not. I protest against those people who want to keep us different because I don’t believe that’s just.”
“People don’t like me.” He confessed. Like a true questioner, I asked, “Why not?”
“Because I’m mixed.” He said pulling his hood back over his face. Then in a voice that is small, nearly broken, very fragile, he shares something so tragic it made me weep. “Sometimes,” He stated ever so softly. “I feel like I’m a mistake. Like I wasn’t meant to be here.” And he covered his face with his hood completely obscuring his beautiful honest face.
I had to breathe deeply because the mixture of anger, sadness, compassion, and longing to ease his suffering were so strong, I got the wellies.
“George, please stand up.” I asked gently. He complied and I took each of his shoulders in my hands and leveled myself with his true green eyes. “I need you to understand something, believe it and feel it deep in your heart, do you understand that?” He nodded so I continued. “You my beautiful perfect human friend are never, no matter what anyone else in this world tells you, are NEVER a mistake. You are a bridge between the two. You are a leader with an extraordinary gift for storytelling. You ARE the future of peace in this world. Do you understand what I mean?” I felt completely intent with my purpose. He looked up at me with such an open comprehension that I felt like I was looking into something way bigger than he or I.
“I understand. But people…” He started to say when I interrupted him.
“People can be nasty, vicious creatures, but so can they be humans who don’t understand the differences. Black lives matter because ALL lives matter. You are so important to me and to your sister and your family. Even if they say hateful words, they always, like me, will love you. Black lives matter, George, because you think I’m better than you because I’m white. I promise you, my beautiful friend, we are equals in spirit. We are equals as physical beings. Just because we have different melanin doesn’t…”
“What’s melanin?” He interrupted me.
“It’s what makes your skin darker than mine and because I have less, I’m more pale than you are.” I explained.
“That’s it? That’s what’s different?” He looked at me incredulously. I nodded my head. “Well that’s just plain stupid.”
“George, my friend, I couldn’t agree with you more. Want a cupcake?”
“After another hug?” He asked, his eyes no longer filled with tears.
“Absolutely. We’ll break bread together.” He grinned back at me as I went and got two applesauce cupcakes topped with green holiday frosting. We sat in the spring sun feeling the icy breeze sharing each others company, heart to heart, spirit to spirit.
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