You should click the link and explore this piece. It’s brilliant.
I wrote this over 10 years ago, but found it again about 5 years back. I just remembered I love doing this and miss it very much.
I wrote this because my heart has felt sad lately. It’s short, ambient, and a bit mournful.
I hope he never knows the pain he’s gifted me.
I pray that his life turns out better than any of my prayers could be.
My fervent wish from my bended knee
Is that his eyes be opened enough for him to recognize and see.
I hope he never understands an abused and neglected heart
I pray that his life is filled with every color of every art.
My fervent wish although we’re apart
Is that his grays fill in with rainbow light and from darkness he depart.
There is no tree bedecked with lights
to push away the coldest nights
There is no ornament in your name to hang
There are no bells, their music to clang
There will be no feast to honor the sun
There will be no hours of festive fun
There will be dust and ashes upon my hearth
With saddened heart absent, a disguise worn of mirth
As the tears refrain down memory lane
with whispers of the joy that remains
etched on the holiday with stains of your haint
re-purposing, recycling you into glorious saint.
I’ll stare out the window to witness the world sing
As I dread your fair haunting that this season brings.
When death comes knocking at my door,
bony feet with dusting robes stepping on my floor
My fleshy shell will open to allow my spirit to soar
I will no longer look at the life of the living
wishing more time for regrets and forgiving
I will return to the spirit with thanksgiving
The height of my body will no longer matter
The color of my skin no longer the chatter
The question answered, my lifeline flatter.
I will gaze with love at those who surround me
with their beautiful faces weeping around me
and I will know that my life shined brightly.
As I pass from this life unto the end
In my very last moments I will attend
to touching your cheek and saying, “I love you, always, my beautiful friend.”
Where there are tears,
Where there is despair,
Where there is darkness,
offer your light.
Where there is injustice,
offer human rights.
Where there is loss,
offer a shoulder.
Where there is a spark
offer to smolder.
Where there is plenty,
offer to share.
Where there is anguish,
Where there is emotion,
offer your being.
Where there are shackles
offer the freeing.
Where there is chaos,
offer a peace.
Where there is frustration,
I apologize for the delay in posting. For someone that likes to spend time contemplating the Universe, volunteering on the fly, putting my hands “in the dirt” when it comes to getting a project done, I have been doing just that.
On Saturday, 12/13/14, I spent a bit of time with my husband, snuggled up and cuddly which is rare in this wild month. Then I headed over to the Dollar General store to clean out their candy supply so The Red Cross would have give-away for the Christmas Parade that evening. I came up short. Not only did I come up short, but I had to put some back. By the time I got done, I had, and I wish I was exaggerating, 13 cents to my name. At 5PM, I met Miss Sharon Crane at the Red Cross and we got ready to move out and line up. It was a ton of fun. Here is a picture of one of my favorite people and me in my Viking hat made by Freddie Nechtow.
After the parade was done, I got home a bit after 10PM. Then I had to get signs made up for the protest the following day. I posted them previously, so I won’t redo that, but you can find them here. That kept me up until 2:30AM.
On Sunday morning I was exhausted, but knowing that I’d get a million hugs at church, I got up, got dressed, and drove over to ORUUC where I attend. I gave many hugs because we found out that a beloved member of our church had passed away. The waves of sadness washed over my heart and spirit already weary from physical exhaustion. It felt heavy in my heart. My arms gave comfort to anyone who asked. I felt compelled to offer far more than usual, but the feelings were also far more than usual. It was odd.
After a brief time at home, I dressed and headed down to K-Town to meet with people I didn’t know to join them. Here are a couple of pictures from that day. My friend Laura stood so proudly on the corner. It filled me with great joy to see her courage. Although I don’t want to post her picture without her permission, I wanted to mention that I love her very much.
Then on Sunday night, I rested with my husband. On Monday, I started working with Not In Our Town to get a large donation moved and begin sorting through it to find out which agencies would best benefit everything we have assembled. That is working in conjunction with TORCH (Trinity Out-Reach Center of Hope) to provide Christmas for those who have nothing to give but want to give something. When that part is done, all donations left over will be distributed to several area agencies to help fill their coffers with goods and clothing.
So, if it seems as if I’ve been neglect of my writing, there is, indeed, a good reason for that. I’ve been a busy gal collecting ideas and experiences to translate into more stories and poems to share with you. That will be continuing until next week because I’m already signed up for a spectacular series of fortunate events next week as well.
May your holy days, however you celebrate or don’t, be filled with the love and peace I feel sharing with you these activities. May strength to do what you can to make a difference in your community be given when you feel you may not have it. May your needs be ever met with enough. May you know that you are loved unconditionally. Peace, love, and light, Mare Martell.
I admit that I am an explorer of other people’s homes.
A pirate seeking buried treasure that’s right beneath their nose.
I like to admire the stained glass lamp that has a shade with fringe.
I like to see the beauty beneath the cobwebs and the dim.
I like to use the bathroom and see the colors of your towels
I won’t rhyme this line unless I can remove all the vowels
Wn’t rhym ths ln nlss cn rmv ll th vwls
May I peek into your medicine cabinet to see your secret life?
May I, with little poking ‘round, see what gives you strife?
Are you careful with your products all neatly lined up in a row?
Are you careless with your inventory like a freaking circus show?
Do you keep random things to surprise people like me?
Or do you hide that secret life in your secret menagerie?
Do you appreciate your happies when you look shiny to reflection?
Or do you begrudgingly criticize your imagined dereliction?
I reluctantly admit, that I’m an explorer of other people’s homes.
A pirate seeking buried treasure that’s right beneath their nose.