Category Archives: Personal

Blueberry Pancakes

I love blueberry pancakes.

the ones my dad makes for me

when I get to spend the night.

They are emotions spread into 6″ rounds

with bubbly edges stained purple.

It’s how he tells me

“You mean so much to me.”

or

“I love you berry much.”

That’s not him, that’s me.

It’s the connection with a father

MY DAD that worked hard

so she wouldn’t have to.

It’s the flavor of buttered syrup

a modicum of sweet drizzled

over bruised blueberries

bubbling more

than some battered fruit

The stacks of his generous heart

tower over the platter

that he places on the table

solid, like him, dependable,

sturdy as stock he stands

I accept his gift as he tells a joke

with the punchline

strategically placed

in middle the middle

Bluebirds

Happiness came to visit

dressed in a bright blue suit

with cherry vest

across the breast

The pursuit of happiness

Singing a lilt to their paramour;

Speaking up

not speaking for

Dipping into a lover’s rhythm

flying bilateral prisms

The two move in synchronicity

Happiness loves company

Evolution

Pointing fingers of blame

Screaming, hollering, cursing your name

But love hasn’t died, it has changed

It has evolved into smoke and rain

Before I hate you, before it gets strange

Words of power up again

No words of rage

No, “Please don’t go”

Just anguished tears staged

A separation shallow

TAMP Matthew (Seth) Fox

This young man died on January 6th of 2020. He was my "future husband" and as best friend to Matthew McBee, a true blue all the way. He was 24.
Matthew Caine (Seth) Fox

Your hair should be gray

when they lay you to rest

not dark on your brow

with a babe on your chest

What brings me awakened;

startled upright in the dark

‘Tis only the dawn becoming

on the lilt of morning larks

They promise a new day

frigid with winter’s chill

To rest you in the January earth

upon that hallowed hill

Liberty Stolen

My body, this I be (My country tis of thee)

Peace, Joy, Affinity, (Sweet land of liberty)

Youth’s fountain springs (Of thee I sing)

Blood on my mother’s thighs (Land where my father’s died)

Gifts of our sister’s sighs (Land of the Pilgrim’s pride)

At every hearth reside (From every mountainside)

“Hestia, we sing!” (Let freedom ring!)

Quilted Southern Winds

Quilted Southern Winds

Everyone thinks death cold, but It’s really

Warm, intimate, successful release

Wrapped up in the comfort specifically.

Designed with the greatest love; Precisely laid

Met with the request for entry

with two silver coins for Charon

but lacking in the courage to step onto the ferry

Hindered by worry that is specifically laden with

Lofty descent permeated with terror

Yet thrown back into the tepid waters

as rebirth is painfully conjured from within

the womb of life pattern stitched

in quilted southern winds

Dragon Eggs

Wide faced, Sun dragon, Autumn born

Suggested the night from the silence torn

Roaring the request under the new moon

Silvery scales auroral gloom

Refusing the son of golden birth revealed

Pirated riches to build the nest; wealth sealed

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Wishing you back to life
Grief holds you hostage

I wait for the dirge to play its sobbing notes of sorrow

I wish away the grief that I don’t want to swallow

And yet I’ll sit with you; your body hollow

Wishing you back to life.

I wail to the moon and stars my gypsy heart defective

My fists beat my chest; no longer your keeper protective

sending morose squalls of melancholic reflective

Wishing you back to life.